not doing so hot!

Been having a tough time trying to find my way. I feel like there are so many areas of my life that have to be worked on, my health, housekeeping, parenting, being a wife....
I know that all these things are inter related because they are all things that I must be but I am struggling with just being overwhelmed. I do not know how to start.
The other day the kids were saying it would be great if we had a robot to do all our chores and the things we do not want to do. I was day dreaming about that. It occurred to me that in the past, people worked much harder than we do today. They got up, carried water, wood, scrubbed clothes by hand, raised much of their food in gardens maintained by hand, took care of their animals and cooked their food from scratch. They rarely or never had days to do nothing. Yet they had better relationships with family and friends as many times they worked together to harvest and can their food or to make a quilt. And they were healthier than we are today for eating better food and physical exercise of daily life.
I wish I could get my life to a more simple place. A place where I was proud of the work that I do to care for my family and home instead of just tired and overwhelmed and just plain whiny about the things that I need to do. Lord Jesus, please help me to have a grateful heart and to learn and do the things that I am made to do with a happy heart.

tortilla shells

yesterday morning, I made home made tortilla shells. I was really pleased with them. I know that I could get better if I practiced this more. I do not think my husband appreciated them though cause he made a special trip to purchase tortilla shells for me.
My first attempt at cooking in a stainless steel pan burnt though. I used my nonstick. I do not know how I will do trying to give those up....

salads!

So, I have been trying to eat a salad each afternoon. I have only missed one day but it requires a lot more self disciple than I feel I have most days. It frequently feels like a terrible chore that I almost dread! It doesn't sound that bad but when I get hungry in the afternoons, I think that means it is time to eat a salad and then I just cringe. But I am trying to press onward. I think eating a salad is important and I want to be in better health so I chose to continue to eat a salad a day.
Our air conditoner stopped blowing in our house last night. It has not been bad with the fans in the windows but I just want to say God is good. I will praise him when the air condioner works and when it doesn't. I chose joy! for the joy of the Lord is my strenght.

new beginnings!

So, my Sarah is 4 1/2 months old and I am at my greatest weight ever.
I am trying to make sure I eat one salad everyday, drink lots of clean water and stay away from the peanut butter. I have been experimenting with more vegetables.
I think Eric may be gluten intolerant. So I have been looking at how to remove gluten from our diets to see if that helps him. I want to get a grain mill and mill my own grain but it is a huge investment. I want to know what kind of steps to take.
Eric will be seeing a doctor next week for his blood pressure and blood sugar. I pray that the doctor has great discernment to determine what he might need.