week 15-16

Well, my ultrasound and doctor's appointment turned out fine. Both showed that I was slightly further along than 15 weeks. I don't yet know if they will move my due date up or leave it where it is. The placenta seems to be okay. What a relief it is to hear that heart beat. Now I have heartburn....

Babysitting over!

I officially had my last day as a babysitter for a little boy that I agreed to watch. I am so relieved. I know that might seem terrible but I was so tired and stressed with trying to guard my own children's hearts while they were around him. We had many more behavior issues too. I now understand how important it is to truly make wiser choices about who my children will be spending time with.
On a more positive note, we will finally be able see the house we are thinking seriously about moving to on Sunday. I am very excited about that. I am hoping that we can live more simply and relaxed there. I am hoping to be able to help my parents with the garden more this year and then we can also eat more healthy garden grown foods. Christina and I debate to reality of getting chickens for eggs, having goats or cow for milk and other simple farm animals. Not sure how far I want to go yet. Just need help now and I would get that if closer to mom. Also getting the kids up and down the stairs has been really hard for me lately. Christina came down and helped me clean the house and cooked lots and lots for us this past week. It was such a blessing.

Week 14

Well, Christina is in town this week to help me out. She actually called the local hospitals for prices for baby delivery so I could determine where I should pick a doctor. She made sure that I had a doctor's appointment too. I was shocked to learn that one hospital was a couple of thousands of dollars higher. Made the choice much easier. They really frowned at me when I turned up in the ER a couple of weeks ago for heavy bleeding for not having a doctor. Turned out everything was ok, I tore lose an edge of the placenta. We are expecting a baby boy in August. I have been trying to not lift the kids and may move sooner than May to be closer to my parents and to stop climbing the stairs.

Stressed and tired

I am so tired of being frustrated with the kids. I told the mother of the little boy I babysit after school that I have about had it. This may be the last week or month that I can watch him. I can't take much more. I am either going to quit or he needs to be a new child. I should not have to threaten to call his mom every single day. I shouldn't get frustrated to the point that I do with him. It is hard because with my own children when they disobey an established rule or ignore a new instruction, I can deal with them promptly and effectively. I don't have the same response from him. He ignores my instruction, when I tell him to sit, he disreguards that too. I have to physically go get him and place him on the couch. (I can not send him to any one's room to calm down because of how destructive he is.) Then the entire time is a huge, ugly ordeal. I am so done with this. Next time I agree to babysit, I will talk to the parent more about how they parent, how the child responds, and if the child has any restrictions as to content that they watch on tv (this obviously has an effect on this little boy, violent cops and robbers games, explict jokes and stories, foul langauge........)